this song on perry's public blog has affected my mood. hump. maybe me feel so down at the moment, but it is so nice that i simply refuse to click on the close button.- then song will be switched off. it is really very nice. but it has caused me to think of those things which is already over. it is all over. now that we are walking seperate ways. besides, we're leading a different life already. we no longer have anything in common. except for the school we are in. other then that, nothing.nothing at all. since i've chose this path, i'll live it to the 'fullest'. i'll not let myself down again. but i really wonder what triggered me to make that awful decision. any way it is already over. both of us are different people living in different worlds-i think. we treat each other like stranger. our eyes never meet, whenever we see each other. either one of us will look some where else, or we'll pretend to talk to our friends or just stare at some thing else. to keep our eyes occupied. so as not to acknowledge each other's presence. before we walked seperate ways, we promised to remain as good friends. but it never happen. i doubt it will be possible. maybe at present we will never be friends at all. indeed, as what he has once said, why do i have to pretend that nothing has happened before? is it really so terrible that i cannot even keep it as a memory? initally, i tried to forget about every thing. i wanted so badly to erase off this part of my memory. but it is impossible. i was rather frutrated with myself. why can't i do such a simple thing such as forgetting someone and something. but now i was glad that i did not erase them from my memory. during certain occasions, the things that he once said will come to my mind. most of the time i'll just smile to myself and keep quiet. at times when i'm feeling down, most of the time due to my mood swings, i'll put on my shoes and start jogging around my estate. after my fifth round, i'll stop at the playground near my house. i'll go over to take the swing. every time i sit on the swing, i'll be smiling at the silly things we've done. it is so childish=) my wish was granted. hahah=) now when i think back, i think i was really funny ah. but i think it is really very nice=)
* note*
i'm a visual, auditory and kinaesthetic person. but i think i'm more of a visual person. whenever i talk to someone i find it is really important to look at the person. or else i'll regard that as a form of rudeness. if i happen to be in a bad mood, then such small things can irritate me too.
i was looking through mr lye's ground leadership notes, then i recalled what kind of peron i am=) ahhaha=) so remember, eye contact is really important. i'll really uneasy if i do not make eye contact with the person whom i am talking to. hahah=) one of my weird characters. hahha=)
loves=)
